Planting Seeds

Full sending it. Fully committed. It takes full faith that God put you in the perfect place and time to start to find purpose even in the most inconvenient times. It takes full surrender of control resting in the fact that the God of the universe is so much bigger, stronger and smarter than any decision you could ever make on your own. Asking for His perfect plan instead of your own.

During Chapter two of outreach we were in our first ever mountain village. If the bus ride up the mountains wasn’t captivating enough, as soon as we stepped into the yard of the small house we were staying at all of our mouths were stuck open in awe of the beautiful spot we were at. I was so excited to get started trekking this beautiful territory where the name of Jesus was unknown. That night we gathered with believers and worshipped on a rooftop in the next village while the sun set behind the mountain tops. Unforgettable beauty of God. The next morning I was woken up around 4:00am by intense stomach pain I carefully walked over five roommates in sleeping bags on the floor to make my way to the squatty potty outside. Yep, I was unwell, I couldn’t hide it and the nearest hospital was 2 hours away.

It got to the point were I couldn’t retain any fluid even a sip of water I’d vomit up. I’ll spare you the details haha. Anyway “coincidentally” (but really by the grace of God) one of the translators and His dad had come up the mountain and his dad was heading back to the main town the same morning so my leader packed my bag for me and I walked from the house to the road to meet him there. There’s always a language barrier and sometimes things are misunderstood and this time our way back down the mountain was misunderstood haha. Instead of a car or bus there was a motorcycle waiting for me. So I got to do something I love which was motorcycle down the beautiful mountain range however I had to pullover a few times to be sick hahaha. By the time I made it back to the house in the main town I was feeling so weak. My school leader called me from Alaska to see how I was going to decide if I needed to go to hospital or not. He prayed for healing for me as I vomited for the last time. After a nap I woke up feeling pretty much 100%. I was healed by Jesus!

Now I wondered why God wanted me off the mountain. I was so excited to do ministry and it felt like I had been benched from the action and isolated from my team. Little did I know that God wanted to refresh my soul and ignite the fire again. I spent two days resting with God, praying, reading, worshipping- soul food. And it was amazing! It was really time God knew that I needed.

God never wasted our time when we surrender it to Him. The moments I’ve been the most productive and satisfied with how I spend my time is when I first inquire with God and what He wants with my time. I did that well for two days.

But the enemy’s voice was loud, inducing feelings of being left out of ministry, feeling unvalued and questioning why I couldn’t be doing what I came to do- to share the gospel and help people. Forgetting my main purpose is to first know God and first love God and then go out and make His love known.

I pushed to go back to the mountain even though God had given me a word for a young adults meeting. And on the third day instead of going to the meeting I went up the mountain again to reunite with my team.

Once I was there they were taking a rest day and then the day after the decision was made to leave early due to weather issues. So I had basically wasted another two days of time. I instantly felt convicted of not inquiring with God about where I should I have been. And I learnt something really valuable that I NEED to inquire with God with every decision and trust that I’m in the right place and time. He is a creator of divine appointments – it was no coincidence that there was a way for me to leave the mountain village when I was sick, and it was no coincidence I was healed, no coincidence that I had a word to share with the young adults.

Now when being convicted of something it’s so important to not become self hating or frustrated. God is not the enemy – Satan is the enemy and he is the deceiver and the body my spirit is in is sinful in nature.

Everyday we need to inquire with God about how to spend our time because time is so valuable you only get so much of it on Earth. You can’t get back what you loose, so ain’t nobody got time to be deceived and led astray from Gods perfect plan for today!

It’s so easy to get caught up in emotions in feelings and let it shake your faith and shake your purpose.

Don’t follow your heart. The heart is deceitful (Jeremiah 17:9), and the enemy is the deceiver. But be spirit lead, follow God listen for His voice, go to the word of God and you will be able to trust you are in the right place and time. Don’t see it? ASK GOD TO REVEAL PURPOSE TO YOU! Everything happens for a reason.

No matter what chapter you’re in, no matter how difficult it is, have faith that God is growing you THROUGH it (not out of it ;))